Change of all and nothing

Well sweet angel, so much the same, so much different. The same, in that I could repeat the same words already written, to the same, if not less, effect. Yet I think I am finally learning what is worth trying to keep and what is not.
But oh so different. My sin took root and, as I predicted, still may be the death of me yet. At the start of our conversations I asked how to get an issue out of my head. I pray that surgery, chemo and radiotherapy as well as the Lord's forgiveness has done enough to be able to keep me here for a while longer. I have taken his promise but I also know I need His strength. He died for my sin. I pray to Him that I do not have to do the same.